As I put Jack to bed tonight he was just about to fall asleep and I was singing I Am a Child of God to him and I started to replay the day over in my head, mostly the last few hours. I lose my temper with him so quickly, he so easily frustrates me. He breaks thing all of the time, is constantly making a mess, loves to torment the twins, and whines whines whines...... but I had this overwhelming feeling come over me of, I sure hope he knows he is loved. He has had his whole life flipped upside down in this past year. He not only became a big brother once, but twice. He is a smart, funny, kind, little ball of energy, that is one of the best parts of my life. So I hurried before he fully fell asleep and made sure that he knew he was loved and even if I get mad often he is always loved and appreciated. New goal for tomorrow.... be a better, less frustrated MOM! I will keep you posted on that :)
I feel exactly the same with my oldest. Dayton is super hyper active and he goes from one extreme to the other. I feel like all I do is yell at him. Its so sad. I have cried a lot because I feel so bad but its so hard. I have tried to just be a parent that doesnt yell and when something goes wrong to use positive reinforcement. It wears me out. By 8 pm i am so ready for sleep though. It messes with my stress and my emotions so bad. Its super hard being a mom and I cant imagine having twins on top of that! I am sure you are a great mom and I am sure Jack does know how much you love him!
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ReplyDeleteI remember my mom telling me that at night she'd think back through her day and think about each child and feel guilty for things she did or didn't do. I do the same thing now, it must be a mom thing. I'm sure you're doing great!
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